I hope that everyone who celebrates Christmas had a great one with their friends and family. Our Christmas was a quiet one, we didn't have presents under the tree this year, which felt rather strange to the both of us. I did make peppermint cookies and butter cookies. I had already made sugar and gingerbread cookies earlier as well as cream cheese mints.
Ron was feeling better so he cooked a nice dinner for us as well, this is a blessing to say the very least.
We watched some Christmas movies together and enjoyed the day together. We both realized that we allowed our circumstances to take over how we were going into the holiday season and that we need to change this.
Here we are today, Ron had his physical therapy session, he did great in it. He is watching a movie and I am working today. Next year as long as I am still with my employer, I am planning on taking time off between the holidays as long as I have the time to do it. We are making some changes starting today with attitudes and thinking. We both realized that this accident took us both down after a long year of other bad things going on, 2024 was a rough year for us both and we want to make 2025 better. We both learned so much.
I learned that I am a strong woman, YES, I said it finally. My strength was not all my own, it was through the power of Jesus that I have been able to get through this year. I learned that I am a determined woman, who can get things done as long as I put my mind and spirit into it. I have managed the household a lot over the years, especially this year. I have managed to get our bills caught up so nothing is lacking or getting disconnected. I have managed to keep the house running and clean. It's taking a lot of prayers, tears, screaming, and some alone time. I am hoping that 2025 will be a bit easier and less stressful for me, well for us.
This leads me to the next thing in my life, not necessarily Ron's life, unless you want to say that the changes I make for myself are also for Ron. Starting today I am taking time to think about what I want, what I like, and what I need to be happy. It's time for some self introspection without the influence of social media or others, I need to sit with myself and know who I am truly. YES!! I am a daughter of God I know that already. It's honestly my personality and what makes me who I am that I am looking to connect with. I spent many years of my life changing to make others happy and now it's truly my time to make myself happy. I was so miserable doing all I can to make others happy, mostly because I sacrificed everything I was to be sure others were happy, when in essence it's not my job to make anyone happy. That falls on each person.
This may be another blog post or a few as we move forward in this journey.
I have some goals that I want to start achieving in the new year.
- Lose weight and get healthy
- Read my Bible daily and study it.
- Dress better, put on makeup, do my hair, and do my nails.
- Upgrade my decor in my hair to match my style, whatever that may be.
- Do arts and crafts that spark my interest.
- Read more books.
- Get outside more.
- Watch more lighthearted, fun TV and movies.
- Bake and cook more. I found that I really love to cook and bake.
- Dance, sing out loud, and laugh more.
- Be more social in the real world.
- Maybe take a class or two. I am not sure what I want to study, I am sure I will figure it out.
- Take more pictures.
- Travel more
- Share my photos and write more. Perhaps start a YouTube channel since it appears Tik Tok may be shutting down in the US.
- Save money in a bank account each month and don't touch it until we are ready to move or if there is an emergency.
- Buy Ron one gift a month to put towards next Christmas. Make sure I get him a gift or two for his birthday and our anniversary.
- Send our actual cards, maybe hand written letters.
- Volunteer somewhere.
- Adopt a cat, yes I said I didn't want another pet, I miss our cat Moca so much. I would love another cat.
- Get a different vehicle, I don't like our car we drive. It's costing way too much to drive it.
- Go out of dates with Ronnie.
- Go out with friends here.
There is just a part of my list. I want to make changes that are positive and they are attainable.
This is necessary for me in order to get to the woman that I am meant to be and want to be.
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