Change is Inevitable

As I sit outside on the patio, with my hot cup of freshly ground, brewed coffee that I made at home and my bowl of oatmeal which was made at home by me, I am watching the birds in the yard eating at our bird feeders, listening to sounds of Tucson waking up. I have been busy this morning with cleaning up the house as best as I can, you know that "normal" stuff that I do daily with a few added in things. Normally I get up early to make the coffee, we switched from ground coffee to whole beans to grind ourselves after watching a YouTube video on foods that are really not good for you. The one was already ground coffee, apparently it can have wood pulp in it, yes wood pulp as well as ground up bugs!! I made the decision to buy the whole beans and grind them myself. I have been making lots of changes in the house over the last two months since Ron's accident. I am in charge of the money which means I control that goes out, the bills go first, then food, and if there is left over then we do something fun. Lately, the money is lasting longer with me in charge, there are no more trips to QuikTrip two times a day, or to McDonald's or whereever anymore. We are not having to overdraft either. In fact, in January I will have all the "normal" bills caught up, so that I can try to work on getting the other stuff taken care of. It seems that with our financial situation I will be needing to be take care of stuff before we can consider moving out of state, so it's another year in Tucson for us. Not to mention, until Ron is cleared by his neuro and primary care physician, we cannot move anywhere. Here is to working hard to get our finances straightened out more over 2025. I am looking into getting a great skin care regimen down, as well as buying great makeup for myself to wear. I don't need all the funky, crazy colors anymore, I am happy being all natural. The same goes with my hair, if I do anything with it, it would be highlights to soften it up and layers. I will be getting myself some better looking clothes as well, I want to look classy, not trashy, that is something that has been bothering me for a long time now. I allowed myself to look trashy and stopped caring for myself, that goes for my weight as well. I started GOLO at the beginning of December and didn't tell a soul that I was doing this, I lost some weight. I need to get serious on it and follow it better to lose what I want to lose. I will be investing in my hands and feet as well, as far as manicures and pedicures, as I deserve to treat myself to nice things. I work hard and I deserve it. I am planning on getting to the Gospel Supplies store, Barnes & Noble, and our church book store to get more books to read. I know people like libraries, I like to own my books. I will also work on getting my crafting going again, I want to paint ceramics, do beaded jewelry, and of course diamond art, I may even look into the those paint by number things. There are other ideas I have as well to start doing. Joanns and Hobby Lobby will most likely be my go to stores for crafting and art stuff. I will be most likely be going out more by myself to certain places, which is okay. I joined a Facebook group of women in Tucson who do meetups, so I may start getting involved in that. I plan on meeting people at our church and hopefully making friends there. At least, until we do move out of Tucson, which will happen in time. I am just tired of hearing how the sun is too much, how hot it is and so on. I do miss the country and seasons myself. In the house, I will be going through before New Year's Eve and clearing all any thing left over from this year that does not promote nor serve God. If this makes Ron unhappy then so be it, I want my home to be a home that represents Jesus. I want my home to be a home, not just a house that we live in. I want people to feel like they can visit and feel at home when they do. Do I hope that Ron will on board with what I have planned? Yes! I feel it will be best to make these changes, deliberately, seriously, and intentionally.